A Hero Never Dies

You named this "Keith and Brandi's Corner," however I never wrote anything. I just followed. So, in memory of you, here goes.

It's about 12:30 in the morning and sleep will not find me tonight. I lie in bed and listen for noises. You was such a strong leader and protector of our house. I never worried about noises. The worst thing to happen in the night is your cuddling would make it hot and I would elbow you to turn over saying, "Honey, it's hot, roll over." On occasion, it was, "Honey, you're snoring, turn over." Now, I lie in bed, alone, listening for noises.

Each morning I wake up thinking that you're still here. It takes a second for reality to kick in for me to realize that you're gone. I can't stand the fact that Jacob has to see disappointment on my face each morning, at 3pm when you don't come home, and again before bed. I try not to cry around him. He is such a joyous child and I never want to steal that from him.

God blessed us with such a wonderful bundle of joy. Each morning I pick up your photograph and point to it saying, "Da Da." I hope that he can connect that to you. I have no idea how I will explain to him someday as to why he doesn't have a daddy when all the other kids do. It hurts my heart to know that such a wonderful father was ripped away from such a wonderful son. I dread the loneliness that will accompany Jacob's first birthday along with the holidays.

I wanted to have so many more kids with you. I gave away all of Jacob's old baby clothes the other day. Obviously we will not be having any more children. I couldn't stand the constant reminder.

We were going places, you and me. We had so many plans. Remember how retirement was supposed to be awesome? I welcome aging at this point because I know that I will be closer to seeing you, but I'm also scared because I know that I will not have anyone to depend on when I'm elderly except Jacob.

At times I feel angry. You were such a faithful husband. I always trusted you. It burdens me to know that you took a bullet for infidelity when you were such a faithful, christian man.

I never told you enough how much I loved and appreciated you. That is something that I will regret for the rest of my life. You are my hero and I hope that you know that. I am so proud of you. I will never stop loving you and I can't wait to see you again. Please know that I will do my best to raise Jacob the way we planned.

Since you and I will again never be in this "corner" of yours together, this will be the final posting. Maybe in a couple of years I will remove the account. So, for anyone else that may see this, I will write a little bit about you and perhaps those who weren't close to you will see the real you....

Keith was the most handsome man I ever met. We met the summer before our senior year of high school. We started dating in October of 2001. Keith was quite a different person then (as was I). Anyone who knew Keith in high school but not recently probably doesn't really know Keith at this point. We married August 6, 2005. He was the type of husband that would make dinner as I was on my way home from work, would keep Jacob both of his off days, and would drive to Nashville once a week and eat lunch with me so I could see them both. Keith would write me "citations" and leave them in my car for me to find later. In his citations, he would write his car name as "bubbles" instead of 507 (my nickname for him was cuddlefish- hence "bubbles" the car). He would autograph the bottom with just a picture of a fish.

We were saved in 2007 at First Baptist Church of Dickson. From that point on, our lives changed, drastically. Keith became the wonderful man that you all know him as today. He wanted to tell others about Christ and wanted to help rebuild in Haiti and Zimbabwe. He was taking flying lessons because he felt that God was calling him to become a mission pilot. Keith had a hobby of fishing that then turned to cycling.

We had Jacob 12/9/2010. We were completely blessed but still at each other's throats (probably due to lack of sleep and stress). Jacob looks like his daddy and is the most joyous baby I've ever seen (not just saying that because he's my kid). Jacob had Keith wrapped around his finger.

Keith was so much more to me than a husband and the father of my child. He would fill in the "gaps" left by my family when they weren't there for me. I never worried about them not being there for me because Keith was always there for me. There is so much more about this wonderful man, but I'm sure anyone who's reading this already knows that.

So, It is now 1:45 am and I may try to lie down again. This post will close Keith and Brandi's Corner. I am so sorry to those of you who were also close to Keith. I know that he had a special impact on your life, too.

Goodnight, cuddlefish. I can't wait to see you again in Heaven.

Man, it's been a while.

Well I was able to recover my password to blogger so I can give a new blog. I forgot it about 5 months ago and was just now able to get it reset. Well where should I start. Nothing has been going to except growing in faith and such. Michelle and I decided to place our house on the market because we found a residence that we liked at a good price, so our move is dependent upon the sale of our existing home. We will see if it sells or not, If it don't that's just fine, if it does that will be good too, either way we are happy and are not stressed out about it. The Lord will put us where we need to be. Tomorrow I go and have my wisdom teeth removed in a outpatient procedure. I'm a little nervous due to all of my past surgery's but I guess I'll be fine. In April we are scheduled for a cruise to the Caribbean. That should be fun. Also I got a guitar and have been taking lessons for a while now. Well I'm sure that there is more I'm leaving out but for now this is all I can think about to write. C Ya

Let's See Where this Year Leads

Hey All. Well it's the first of the year and I better get to writing. We hope that this year will be less stressful than last year with the surgery and all. We are planning to start a family this year and are very exited. We pray that God has it in mind for us to have a child this year. We are also planning on going on another cruise and working on the house. I'm gona laugh when I look back at this post a year from now and see all the things we " planned for " but did not happen. But we hope for a healthy child most of all. I'm planning on getting in shape this year. I've been toying with working out now for the past two years and I'll get in shape then quit. I just got to keep it up this time and see how lean and mean I can get. There is snow on the ground so no mowing or fishing for me. I've been learning the guitar this winter and have been taking lessons. I got a new guitar and amp so I've been practicing and driving Brandi crazy. We will see if I can learn anything over time. Well Im gona go for now, See Yall soon.

Fallen Brothers

My heart and prayers go to the family's of the four Oakland Police Officers murdered recently. The suspect was later shot and killed by a lone officer on patrol. I do not understand this world sometimes but I know it is in Gods hands. I go to work everyday and hope that all of my fellow brothers of the badge stay safe but there was no way to avoid this tragedy by a individual with a vendetta against normal society. The normal society that you experience because we are behind the scenes taking care of the problems. May they rest in peace with the Lord, their job is done. Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called the son's of God. Mathew 5:9

Hello anybody who reads, maybe 1000 or maybe 1, who knows. Well everything in going good in our household. Michelle is still going to school full time at First Free Will Baptist to be a teacher and working full time. I am still policing around town on first shift. We are continuing to grow in our faith and trust in Jesus Christ our savior. Nobody seems to understand how we live our lives now but its ok. We just finished up a 12 week study on Hollieness and how to become more Holy in our daily lives, how to turn from temptation and not be lead astray by the world. It's so easy to get caught up in material things and trying to please co-workers and freinds and not honor God. I have made the choice to leave rooms now when the conversations turn sinfull at work, or to just not comment. This is much harder than I thought it would be but it works. Many people will chastise but I guess if your not being persecuted your not a Christian. I try to remember 1Peter 1:16 everyday and follow through. I have just about stoped cursing all together after reading and studying the book of James. This is one of my favorite books of the bible. It Is great for a new Christain to see how a Christian should compose theirselves. I try to read a
In other news I recently bought another boat, my father and I went to Sparta to get it about three months ago. It was in pretty rough shape when we got it and even blew a tire on the interstate on the way back. We re-carpeted it and found a nest of ants. After getting it all back together it looks real good. I took it out a couple of times and had motor issues. After replacing the starter I thing It's sea worthy again. Seems like a good boat, guess I'll see. The leaves are falling so this puts a end to my mowing for the year. I realy like to mow so this is kinda depressing that I don't get to till spring. Now the leaves have taken over the yard creating a brown and gold blanket. They will have to go soon because I just can't have our yard looking like it is now with leaves everywhere. It looks messy and unkept but the squirrels seem to enjoy it. I like to think they are playing hide and seek in the mounting leaves. With 36 trees there is a lot of them. Other than that all is well here and hope to whoever reads this the same be with you.

Fairwell old Freind

Well guy's yesterday our family lost a old freind, my 1988 Mercedes 190E. After much delebiration about if I should keep the car in the yard not running I decided to sell it to a scrap yard to be turned into a little red cube. I have had this car since High School. This car was the vehicle I used to " chase " down Michelle the day we meet. Thats another story in itself. This o'll car carried me through Graduation, Marraige, live changes, love and loss. Eventualy I parked it four years ago after blowing the heater core and have had several vehicles since then. This summer I got the Mercedes back on the road and drivable but it keept stalling and leaving me in the middle of the road. It's either spend a lot of money to make me feel younger again or be responsibe. I chose the responsible side. It would cost way to much to fix what was wrong with it. So I drove it for the last time, onto the back of a wrecker. Im not sad, well mabey a little, but I do love my Yukon that I have now. Michelle, the Mercedes, and I have been through a lot together. Even to the top of Pikes Peak 14,000 feet. But now is time to move on. I did keep the front grill and other Mercedes emblems from her. They are displayed proudley in my garage as a reminder of the good times me, my wife, and freinds have had in the Mercedes.

House on a Hill

Hello All. It's been so log since we posted I figure I best get a update in. We have been doing great. Still attending church as much as possible and working when I'm not in church. Recently Brandi and I have been afforded the opportunity to live in another house for a couple of weeks. It has opened our eyes to see that we are very happy where we are at and need nothing more. It's a farm and taking care of the 50 plus animals is a blast but there is absolutely no place like home. So if you don't feel like your at home when your home you better figure out what's wrong and fix it. It's fun to see how the other side lives but it's just not for us. Brandi is starting back to school this week. Tonight is her first class of the semester which gives me the opportunity to write. She has been very stressed dealing with issues of the school so we have been praying hard. As far as me I'm back to work for a while now after that pesky surgery and feeling great. I've lost about ten pounds in the past two months and I am down to below where I was in high school. Work has been as usual, a domestic here a suicide there , nothing out of the ordinary. We have taken on a little more responsibility at the church. I attend each men's fellowship regardless of who's Sunday School Class I'm in. With the older class I get wisdom. With the younger class I see how we all struggle together as Christian men coming into our faith. I'm at the point, and have been for a few months now, where I just can't get enough church. I'm not burning myself out though and maybe it's not really the church I can't get enough of, it's God. It's true that when the Holy Spirit is within you you just can't read fast enough or learn enough about scripture and how to bring it to the lost. Well ta ta for now